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Date:Sat, 11 Aug 2007 08:48:59 -0700 (PDT)
From:"jojo nybx" <jojonybx
Subject:bbw with herpes
To:pers-394222567@craigslist.org
hi bbw, nice comment on your personal. i am in love with someone who has herpes. we have been friends for 8 years and
she told me when she was infected several years ago. she is 26 now, i think she was 20 at the time. anyway, we became very
close friends, she knows the good, the bad and the ugly in my personality. several months ago she revealed she loved me, i
was stunned but, after looking inside me i realized i was to in love with her. we decided to get 2gether and have her spend
the weekend with me. sorry but, i was expecting a weekend filled with love making, cuddling and just chillin. instead, she
went out the night before with her friends, got drunk, had a hung over the whole weekend. i was upset because i was trying
to do everything to assure a fun and safe weekend but, did not relate to avoid issues before anything can really occur between
us.. well when she finally made it to my place hung over and all. she did not even bother to wax her legs or any of her body
parts b4 coming to my place. i'm almost surprised she showered and combed her hair.
she began acting strange and distant over the weekend, i tried to put no pressure just chilling out watching tv, tried
massaging her to help her relax. anyway, she acted like a dead fish all weekend. i've could of had better action from a cadaver.
i understand her problem with her std but, i don't understand her sudden change in attitude with me. specially when she revealed
to me how great i was and her feelings towards me. anyway she stayed in one corner of the bed while i tried to get busy, no
response. i found it hard to get aroused under these conditions but i did, it was almost as if i used her body to masturbate
and was done with. sorry if it sounds ugly. anyway i tried calling her a few times after that but she sounded distant with
answers such as yes, no or whatever, without feedback. left her two v/m, she never responded. well, after about a week or
so and a few attempts to amend whatever happened and ease the tension, i decided not to call back. and she has not also. i'm
confused because, no one i know, friends and family know about her std. she made me promise not to ever mention anything to
anyone. i have kept my word.
so, you may be wondering (what the fuck). well, i thought i would bring this scenario to your attention. although you
are younger than me. i'm 39. you have more experience with this std than i do. i just thought you can help me understand what
is going on in her mind. i miss her, i want her but, i refuse to be someone else's door mat. even if it is 4 some 1 i love.
i just recently starting seeing someone else but, i can't stop thinking about this fucking girl.
sorry if i bored you with all this fucking bullshit. but, i'm a little confused. i would love to get her back but i refuse
to be a wuzzz, and be after her asking her; what's wrong? is it something i did? fuck that, at least this way i save some
face. i know is a lot to take in lol. but if you can share something with me that can help me i would appreciate it.
take care
jojonybx
p.s. i'm thinking i should never let my feelings out. they should of been safe in my heart as they were b4 she told me
how she felt or i should of never tried to make her mine that weekend. i don't know.
Date:Sat, 11 Aug 2007 20:12:05 -0700 (PDT)
From:"jojo nybx" <jojonybx
Subject:Re: bbw with herpes
To:<rock_paper_scissors2000@yahoo.com>
thank you erica (pretty name) you helped a lot.. i believe i felt the same way but needed to hear it from someone else.
take care and the best to you.
ps.are you really just 22yrs old. wow...impressive...
ps2. damn i was babbling on my other message, but thanks again...lol
----- Original Message ----
From: Erica Pagan <rock_paper_scissors2000@yahoo.com>
To: jojo nybx <jojonybx
Sent: Saturday, August 11, 2007 2:14:39 PM
Subject: RE: bbw with herpes
I understand your predicament and it so hard to hear how somone whom you love may act so different so suddenly. I think
you just may have to try and contact her one more time with a message just explaining that this friendship means more to u
than being with her as more than that, and you would like to at least salvage that from the emotional wreckage. But i warn
u she may not respond as quickly as you want, so give her her space.
Also there are people who have had herpes for decades and still feel shameful and afraid of intimacy of any kind for they
dontwanna hurt the person or get blamed in anyway maybe because of past experiences.
As far as you dating, you need to continue to lead a regular life in order for it not to disable you mentally from the
rest of the world.
I hope that you two do regain your friendship, and maybe both grow and develop a better rapport and trust so that even
if you just stay friends that bond will be eternal and more deep than any sexual relationship.
If there is any other advice i can give dont be afraid to ask. My name is Erica and its been a pleasure to talk to you.
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